I’m writing this a day after my, hmmm, should I call it a relapse? Hell yes! Almost two months ago I quit smoking cold turkey – I had ZERO cigarettes until two days ago. I used patches to help me through the first three weeks. As I mentioned on my Insta it hasn’t been easy and I think I overestimated what this addiction really means for me physically and psychologically. So two days ago I bought a pack of cigarettes. I was angry and felt like I didn’t have control over anything. Paradoxically I felt like smoking was the one thing I still could do because I wanted to and nobody could tell me what to do or not to do. It was a form of (very very silly) rebellion. I smoked the pack of my lovely favourite Black Devil pink ciggies over the two next days. This morning after an incredibly long and difficult consideration I put on a new patch and started as if all over again.